Life can be unfair. You get beat to the ground and kicked when you're down. You think you're improving and you've got a plan set in stone then something happens and you might have to move home. Trying to prove myself not to you or them but me,myself and I. I need to open my … Continue reading Who R U
OT YM TSIPAR, Panic and Fear as I look in the crowd… Knowing your face I could see and of that I'm not proud. I thought that I had healed. I stopped seeing your face when I closed my eyes at night and I stopped looking for your face in the darkness. I got used … Continue reading 11.5.19
When I reflect on our relationship I realize I did love you. Of course I loved you. I married you. But when exactly did I fall out of love with you? What was my breaking point; people keep asking. I don't have an answer. Do I need one? Aren't my feelings valid enough, sometimes feelings … Continue reading Good things fall apart so great things can come together
Alcoholism. It doesn’t just affect you it affects everyone around you. At the age of one I watched you as you lay in the hospital bed brain dead, while they taught you how to eat, taught you how to walk, talk. By the age of 4 I knew what the inside of bars looked like … Continue reading Dad who ?
He wasn't malicious, he wasn't a monster. Or at least that's the way he projected himself. He took me on vacations, he took me to the beach, he spoiled me. He manipulated my mind. He was a monster in a mask. I remember he would make it a game, He called it "big fish" he'd … Continue reading Monster in a mask
Anxiety. I have no idea what triggers it, but when something does it can't be stopped. I have anxiety over small things that would normally never bother me at all. It's not crippling, I can still function day to day, (med free) It's more like an aura. Yes that sounds silly, but if you have … Continue reading You’re only HuMaN
2-15-17 SERENITY I apologize in advance that this is all over the place. I had went to my special reading/Writing spot and emotions came pouring out. There's a lot of errors, but it is raw and directly from my journal. I feel that I was able to stop … Continue reading Serenity