My life in blog posts; TRIGGER WARNING. This blog is not for faint heart. Raw and Uncut. Readers discretion advised.
Life can be unfair. You get beat to the ground and kicked when you're down. You think you're improving and you've got a plan set in stone then something happens and you might have to move home. Trying to prove myself not to you or them but me,myself and I. I need to open my … Continue reading Who R U
OT YM TSIPAR, Panic and Fear as I look in the crowd… Knowing your face I could see and of that I'm not proud. I thought that I had healed. I stopped seeing your face when I closed my eyes at night and I stopped looking for your face in the darkness. I got used … Continue reading 11.5.19
When I reflect on our relationship I realize I did love you. Of course I loved you. I married you. But when exactly did I fall out of love with you? What was my breaking point; people keep asking. I don't have an answer. Do I need one? Aren't my feelings valid enough, sometimes feelings … Continue reading Good things fall apart so great things can come together
Alcoholism. It doesn’t just affect you it affects everyone around you. At the age of one I watched you as you lay in the hospital bed brain dead, while they taught you how to eat, taught you how to walk, talk. By the age of 4 I knew what the inside of bars looked like … Continue reading Dad who ?
He wasn't malicious, he wasn't a monster. Or at least that's the way he projected himself. He took me on vacations, he took me to the beach, he spoiled me. He manipulated my mind. He was a monster in a mask. I remember he would make it a game, He called it "big fish" he'd … Continue reading Monster in a mask
Anxiety. I have no idea what triggers it, but when something does it can't be stopped. I have anxiety over small things that would normally never bother me at all. It's not crippling, I can still function day to day, (med free) It's more like an aura. Yes that sounds silly, but if you have … Continue reading You’re only HuMaN
2-15-17 SERENITY I apologize in advance that this is all over the place. I had went to my special reading/Writing spot and emotions came pouring out. There's a lot of errors, but it is raw and directly from my journal. I feel that I was able to stop … Continue reading Serenity
I found this in one of my journals from a few years back, when I first met my husband. It's a poem that I had written when we were engaged. Drugs, Violence, Raves, It's all I knew. How I would Escape then you came along and I was reborn. I never want to forget this … Continue reading Reborn
Being a hairstylist is who I am. It is what defines me. When you strip that away what have I worked for? Who am I without this identity. All of my life I wanted to make something of myself. I wanted to make it big, be the best. I now realize that none of that … Continue reading Soul Searching
High school seemed to drag by. I'm sure that's how it was for many of you. People always say what you do your freshman year, sticks with you. Especially in a small town with a graduating class of less than 200. It all started with one bad decision. It was a summer night a few … Continue reading Hot Mess Express
This thing called Life 