When I reflect on our relationship I realize I did love you. Of course I loved you. I married you. But when exactly did I fall out of love with you? What was my breaking point; people keep asking. I don't have an answer. Do I need one? Aren't my feelings valid enough, sometimes feelings … Continue reading Good things fall apart so great things can come together
Alcoholism. It doesn’t just affect you it affects everyone around you. At the age of one I watched you as you lay in the hospital bed brain dead, while they taught you how to eat, taught you how to walk, talk. By the age of 4 I knew what the inside of bars looked like … Continue reading Dad who ?
He wasn't malicious, he wasn't a monster. Or at least that's the way he projected himself. He took me on vacations, he took me to the beach, he spoiled me. He manipulated my mind. He was a monster in a mask. I remember he would make it a game, He called it "big fish" he'd … Continue reading Monster in a mask
Anxiety. I have no idea what triggers it, but when something does it can't be stopped. I have anxiety over small things that would normally never bother me at all. It's not crippling, I can still function day to day, (med free) It's more like an aura. Yes that sounds silly, but if you have … Continue reading You’re only HuMaN
2-15-17 SERENITY I apologize in advance that this is all over the place. I had went to my special reading/Writing spot and emotions came pouring out. There's a lot of errors, but it is raw and directly from my journal. I feel that I was able to stop … Continue reading Serenity
I found this in one of my journals from a few years back, when I first met my husband. It's a poem that I had written when we were engaged. Drugs, Violence, Raves, It's all I knew. How I would Escape then you came along and I was reborn. I never want to forget this … Continue reading Reborn
Being a hairstylist is who I am. It is what defines me. When you strip that away what have I worked for? Who am I without this identity. All of my life I wanted to make something of myself. I wanted to make it big, be the best. I now realize that none of that … Continue reading Soul Searching