Being a hairstylist is who I am. It is what defines me. When you strip that away what have I worked for? Who am I without this identity. All of my life I wanted to make something of myself. I wanted to make it big, be the best. I now realize that none of that matters. What I do as a career doesn’t matter.
Why do we feel the need to “Out do” everyone? Why is it that deep down in our soul we have that jealousy or crave what everyone else has. I blame social media. Everyone you follow ONLY posts the good. Social media is not real. Social media is a place where you go to post things that make YOU look good and feel good. Kind of selfish if we think about it. Right?
When did America become so bland? We live to work our life away, to create a family, live in the big house with the white picket fence. So cookie cutter. Do you want that life? It’s okay if you do, society has brainwashed us into believing that we’re nothing if we don’t have anything to show for it. More often than not, those people in those big houses with the White picket fence aren’t happy. They pretend they are. They’re a “big happy family” but are they really?
Who are you underneath your job, underneath your posts, underneath your skin. Deep down to your soul who are you? If we strip everything away that you consider to be you, essentially what would be left? I’ve often thought this. What makes me, me?
If you’ve read any of my other posts you’ll see that I’ve come to terms with a lot of things that I used to push back. I haven’t thought of them in a while, but once my fingers hit the keyboard it all come spewing out like word vomit. I don’t care if you’re offended. It’s 2019 get over it. I’m not a feminist, and I’m not educated at all on politics. But that’s not what is me. You might think I’m stupid and that’s okay because I probably come off that way to a lot. I’m not book smart and never have been.
But what’s going on in my mind is a whole other dimension. Yeah I’m fucking crazy, but aren’t we all? I’ve recently let a lot of things out, come to terms with them. I believe that’s because I have found true happiness. Not only in my husband, but in myself. Truly taking care of yourself, makes a world of difference. You have to love yourself before someone can love you. The good the bad the ugly, you have to love it all. And accept it. If you can’t accept yourself how can someone else?
I’ve recently been discovering a lot about myself. You could say it’s from yoga, meditation, and just being present, but I know it goes deeper than that. Letting go, letting go of things that weigh you down make you free. Leaving things behind that hold you back, makes you free. Leaving people that don’t positively affect your life sets you free. I am so excited to continue to explore and discover myself, and can’t wait to share my journey with you guys.
Much love ❤
This thing called Life 