Dad who ?

Alcoholism.

It doesn’t just affect you it affects everyone around you.

At the age of one I watched you as you lay in the hospital bed brain dead, while they taught you how to eat, taught you how to walk, talk.

By the age of 4 I knew what the inside of bars looked like because you’d go missing and we’d have to make sure that you were still alive.

When I was 7 you came to my dance recital, the first one you’d ever gone too.. but you were so drunk you embarrassed not only yourself but me.

By the age of 10 on only our second “family” vacation mom and I spent all night looking for you, only to find you asleep, passed out in the car.

By the age of 15, all of my friends were scared to come over. You would yell at us if we played music to loud, laughed to much, or stayed up too late.

By the age of 18 I graduated high school. You came to my graduation; sober for once. But did you come to my grad party?

At 21 I moved states. Got my first lease, got into a serious relationship. Went through some very tough times. Where were you?

I got married with no one to walk me down the aisle, no one to ask permission.

But that’s life. You have missed all of it. You’ve missed not only me grow up but your only son. We are adults now. & where were you? Your decisions affect not only you but EVERYONE around you. Now your liver is failing, you won’t even live to see your potential grand kids or any of the great things your kids might come to do in their life. You’ll die with nothing but memories and wishes that you could take things back. & I don’t feel bad for you anymore.